Real Thing

Today.

I made an appointment to see a doctor at the clinic I go to. I think it is funny that her name is Dr. Bustos and she examined my breast.

She was an intern or resident. She thought it might be just part of my normal musculature, but she said she would order a mammogram. As I was getting dressed she came back to my examining room and said the doctor she reports to wanted to have a look. This doctor came in and confirmed it is a large lump, but she wasn't concerned, because she felt it would have been caught on my last mammogram and, therefore, thought it might be a cyst or an infected duct. However, she thought my last mammo was in July 2013.

"No," I said, "It was in July 2012."

I saw her face change. It was silent in the room and she said, "We definately need to have a mammogram and an ultrasound done as soon as possible."

I was hoping it would be part of my breast musculature. 

Figment of My Imagination

I lost my job 10-days ago.

Today, while in the shower, I found a lump in my right breast at about 3 or 4 o'clock. I was always told that a lump was the size of a pea. This is not a pea, it is a large marble. It feels huge.

It wasn't there two months ago, or was it three months? I do self breast exams every few months. This lump is so large and obvious that I don't know how I missed it before now.

Hopefully, it is nothing. Hopefully, it is a figment of my imagination.

A Windy Fall Morning in ABQ

Fight Like a Girl!

October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month.

Life is a Battle Field

I do not use the desk in my bedroom. I do allow El Jay to use my lap top there. I wasn't really paying attention to the mess he was creating. He plays the game Mine Craft, but he also sets up his Legos and army men..... this is three days of El Jay's play.

For so long life has felt like a battle field. Unkind. Scary. Uncertain from day to day. It is kind of nice to go to work five days a week..... I am still worried about how I will pay bills, but with each paycheck some of that fear is lifted. By mid-November, I think, I will be able to start saving towards a newer car and moving into my own place. Oh, well, maybe not, by then I will be buying for Christmas. I think I'll buy many of my Christmas gifts at Alamosa Books this year.

Shoes Needed. Please Donate.

 

I am an Intern at Joy Junction this Fall--totally on a volunteer basis. I am limited in what I can share here, but they have many needs. One thing they can always use is shoes. I saw these tennis shoes hanging from the electrical wire. I am not sure this works for JJ's needs, but I liked the humor.

Fall Semester

Not excited about school. However, if all goes as planned I will graduate in May. YAY!

This semester I have a math class. Creative Concepts. And an Internship with Joy Junction.

Plus, by mid-October I'll be working 33 hours a week... and there is always my boys.

I love my job.

I'm burned out on school.

I've already been sick, but had to push myself to keep going. There is no choice.

On the other hand.... my little car isn't feeling well. I need a healthy car to do all this stuff.

A few fotos I've shot lately.